Back to home thoughts

Today while I am sitting in the train by the window traveling back to home after a year almost for diwali few thoughts randomly hit me that generally I never get time to ponder on or think about…

This Covid-19 lockdown and WFH definitely tested me enough making me stay alone away from the family for almost a year and in such a way that I can’t feel the excitement of going home for Diwali at all that kept me lit up for many weeks before going back home… My mind is all filled with how to reach home safely since I am traveling through the train…

I was fine with staying away from home for Diwali till two weeks back and suddenly something changed. I felt the urge of going home, not wanting to experience staying alone on festival day thinking about all the good old years that I enjoyed with family in Diwali.

This is when some part of me started convincing me to go back home as it is not worth it to stay away from the family for any reason on the main festive season. I realized I deserve to feel happy and contented at this time of the year… Without allowing myself to have any second thoughts on this, I followed my heart booked the ticket and here I am writing this blog in the train.

I realized this part of me that convinced me to chuck everything and do what I want always pops up when the limit of tolerance is reached and something becomes unbearable to feel and survive it… This part of me is my personal favorite that never allows me to give up and directs me to a way that makes it easy to make up….

Back to home thoughts

Today while I am sitting in the train by the window traveling back to home after a year almost for diwali few thoughts randomly hit me that generally I never get time to ponder on or think about…

This Covid-19 lockdown and WFH definitely tested me enough making me stay alone away from the family for almost a year and in such a way that I can’t feel the excitement of going home for Diwali at all that kept me lit up for many weeks before going back home… My mind is all filled with how to reach home safely since I am traveling through the train…

I was fine with staying away from home for Diwali till two weeks back and suddenly something changed. I felt the urge of going home, not wanting to experience staying alone on festival day thinking about all the good old years that I enjoyed with family in Diwali.

This is when some part of me started convincing me to go back home as it is not worth it to stay away from the family for any reason on the main festive season. I realized I deserve to feel happy and contented at this time of the year… Without allowing myself to have any second thoughts on this, I followed my heart booked the ticket and here I am writing this blog in the train.

I realized this part of me that convinced me to chuck everything and do what I want always pops up when the limit of tolerance is reached and something becomes unbearable to feel and survive it… This part of me is my personal favorite that never allows me to give up and directs me to a way that makes it easy to make up….

Back to home thoughts

Today while I am sitting in the train by the window traveling back to home after a year almost for diwali few thoughts randomly hit me that generally I never get time to ponder on or think about…

This Covid-19 lockdown and WFH definitely tested me enough making me stay alone away from the family for almost a year and in such a way that I can’t feel the excitement of going home for Diwali at all that kept me lit up for many weeks before going back home… My mind is all filled with how to reach home safely since I am traveling through the train…

I was fine with staying away from home for Diwali till two weeks back and suddenly something changed. I felt the urge of going home, not wanting to experience staying alone on festival day thinking about all the good old years that I enjoyed with family in Diwali.

This is when some part of me started convincing me to go back home as it is not worth it to stay away from the family for any reason on the main festive season. I realized I deserve to feel happy and contented at this time of the year… Without allowing myself to have any second thoughts on this, I followed my heart booked the ticket and here I am writing this blog in the train.

I realized this part of me that convinced me to chuck everything and do what I want always pops up when the limit of tolerance is reached and something becomes unbearable to feel and survive it… This part of me is my personal favorite that never allows me to give up and directs me to a way that makes it easy to make up….

Thursday thoughts…05/11/2020

How hard have you found yourself pushing you to hang on and not let go…

Even though it feels so convincing when we listen to motivational speakers decorating and presenting before you their lovely and inspiring story but have you ever wondered if it is what is keeping you going. Is their speech making you keep holding on when you reach the edge where you find things difficult to hold on and can’t yourself making through on the other side… It may have inspired you, motivated you or guided you for that time being but your own mind is the one that makes you remember it, recollect it and remind you to follow it. Nothing is important till the time your mind intervene and asks you to do something. That is why maybe we are always told since we are little that put all of your heart and mind in whatever you plan to do and doing this will actually lead you to make it happen…

What I intend to mean here is that it is not people around you that make something good or bad happen to you, I believe its all build up in your mind…basically its you who decide how to face and fight whatever hindrance that may come your way… However bad you want someone to hold you back when you need, there will come a time for sure when you would never find them around and this feeling of emptiness will make you fall for a thought that you can go back to where you started by giving up today… You tend to forget how you reached this long way here… You give yourself less of a credit to help you hold on to you when nobody is there by you side in your weakest points in life…

You have your own little ways to inspire and motivate yourself every morning when you wake up. Always cherish yourself, love yourself more than you are capable of loving anyone else in life because you deserve nothing less than this care and affection for yourself… This is what I have believed in and have been taught by life…

Faith

He tests your belief in him in toughest of times and gives you every possible reason to disbelieve his presence.

He makes you question every believe that you nurtured since your childhood about life, about people.

He makes everything around you go upside down just to mess your mind up so that you build yourself up into a better version of you from your broken pieces.

He makes you believe you can’t make it through so as to strengthen your heart to encourage you to do so.

He always have your back but he never makes you realize it since he always leads you to your own instincts to motivate yourself, strengthen your willpower and make you self confident.

He always put you in situations that make you believe that you can trust yourself, love yourself and you are the most dependable person for you.

He teaches you that you can count on yourself more than you are capable to count on everyone around you.

He is always by your side no matter what but keeps you in the impression that you are all alone.

He has his own beautiful ways to paint lovely miracles in your life which you might have never seen or expected to happen with you. This is when you look back you realize how he’s always been looking after you, showing you the path in the darkness through the instincts of your heart and corrects you when you choose a wrong path as a warning instincts from your brain.

He indeed has his own little ways to keep you safe and happy which you are not always capable to gauge…

A ray of hope…

Have you ever faced a situation that I have mentioned below—-

There comes a phase in life when all you can think is negative. Every thought that you have is negative. Whatever your loved ones advice to you it kind of becomes words going to the deaf ears.

You some how magically get the ability to find faults or negativity all around you, surrounding you like the atmosphere and you top that making your life miserable yourself thinking about it constantly day in and day out.

Then you have a terrible urge to give up everything you’ve been working so hard for all these years and run away just few moment of peace and solitude… Is such peaceful moments worth you leaving back everything you’ve invested your heart and soul for achieving….

You kind of start losing faith and believe that things might get better than this and you will survive it. You tend to forget like every phase in life this will also not be permanent, it will pass, it always does, isn’t it?

In such phase if you are confronted with failure and rejection, it seems to be the end of the world, it seems to you that you are stuck in the middle of the problems having no way out of it. What you tend to forget is that you always have a way out, it’s just that since your vision is compromised with your negative thoughts, you can’t see across what good is awaiting for you…

There will be people around you who might have more difficult issues in life but you won’t appreciate you being in a better position than them in every aspect. Again magically you’ll end up concluding that your grievances and problems are the most difficult one’s and you’d convince yourself with it and believe it blindly.

You find everything stopping you from giving up things isn’t sign from the universe to hold on but it’s kind of bondage for you.

Then when you are on the verge of breakdown, you suddenly find a ray of hope when you never expected to see and restore your believe of something good happening in life after such a long waiting… what an inexplicable and amazing feeling is it that makes you so happy just by thinking of the possibilities that situations might change for better… You do cling to this hope no matter what and overcome your difficulties…

This is how the universe works isn’t it, it always indicate a way out when you are not capable to tolerate any more and change your life for good, teaching you how to be assertive and dwell positive thoughts in your mind again after you’ve almost lost yourself…

This is when you realize and appreciate how worthy it was for you to hang on, tolerate and move on convincing yourself everyday that this testing phase of life will pass with a constant urge of giving up ( since its the easiest and the most worthless thing you could do to yourself)!

Well this is what exactly happened today, it seems…

Companion…

Have you ever wondered why you always try to find someone who would to be with you in good times and in bad as a companion or a partner….if you stop finding such person and just think for a while you’ll realize while finding people to share your joys and sorrows with, you simply ignored an amazing person who is already with you always in every circumstances, guiding you as a voice of your conscience whether somebody is there with you or not—-This person is you…You are always a perfect companion for yourself,there is only a need for you to realize this fact and the day you accept and appreciate this fact,you’ll never find yourself alone and lonely at any point in your life…

Need to Figure out…

In your twenties, how many times have you avoided people asking about your life goals so as to start a conversation and you’ve ended up saying- “Well I haven’t given a serious thought on it, I’m still figuring it out “.What a lame thing to say is this if you hear yourself saying this. You always know what you want from life, yes you do but it’s just that you are so worried and freaked out within about how to make it happen or how to get it is what makes you feel it’s better if you pretend that you are unaware of it. It’s so convenient to say that I need to figure out what I want in life, what kind of life I really want to make for myself rather than just accepting what you know you want and strive getting it for yourself before it’s a reason for regret for you in the future…If you think pretending to be in the figuring out phase will buy you time or make things simpler today, you are definitely mistaken my friend. Trust me if you are relating to the description I have given above, you do need to get your thoughts and mind sorted today and start working on your goal. Only wasting time figuring out things won’t help if you don’t push yourself to work hard give all that you have in you to achieve what you’ve planned to…Life is so short to just go with the flow to figure out and realize in the end that this pth does not lead to your destination, instead sometimes you just need to grab the control of your life and place it on the track where you want to proceed and make things happen. Motivate yourself every day you wake up, talk to yourself looking at the mirror. Appreciate yourself for every step you’ve taken towards your goals. Console yourself and back yourself when things doesn’t go as you’ve planned and start with a plan B coz there is no turning back to figure out phase again…

Sea shores and thoughts…(1)

They say time is the best teacher and healer. Surely they might be true but for me a sea or an ocean is a wonderful teacher! Wondering why…well let me explain it to you through this blog-

Whenever I go to the beach and walk along the seashore, my mind starts wandering and thinking about life and its situations differently. Ofcourse nothing changes but yes since I feel cool, relaxed and as I hear the melody of the tides touching the shore and feel wonderful, my thoughts take up a different direction than it always normally does.

So if you see technically, life seems to be like a seashore where just like the waves and tides situations come up and goes away every now and then… Even though tides carry the pebbles and shell all along its journey it has to deposit it into the shore before going back alone, same is the case in our lives, people come into our life, we love and care for them, create wonderful memories together but at the end it’s your journey, they can only accompany you for some part of your journey make it worth cherishing your entire life but still they aren’t there forever no matter how much you wish and pray for it. They come an become a part of your journey but they are just the part of it not the whole of it.

It’s always a choice that you make which makes your journey and your experiences worth this lifetime since every situation and people that come into your life becomes part and parcel of your life from time to time in this journey of life whether you like if or not!

A person who is strong doesn’t drift from the shore like the loose sand but stay back and fight all the situation that comes along…